Me = Estatic Devotee of the Arts

I really should be putting together my art portfolio and honestly, this is something that has been clashing at war within me for awhile. If I don't make this class, I think I'm going to be pretty upset with myself. Hopefully, I can keep up the mentality to keep drawing, although lately, it seems like my mentality to write has been burning stronger than my mentality to draw. I need to reorganize myself (not to mention also my desk). Although, to be very honest, I think that messes (physically AND emotionally) is a type if art in its own way. Well, when you KNOW and fully UNDERSTAND your mess, it's a kind of art. When you're emotionally a mess, there are trials and errors and you bounce back as a person who just has more color and another kind of texture within your emotions. It's quite a very majestic feeling. =) Well....I mean, I think so. =D

Speaking of emotional messes, I heard this song from a Jonas brother (the ONLY song that I'll enjoy listening to, not even for the voice, but only for the lyrics). Although, I will admit that I like the WAY he sings it. He makes it sound like he truly means it. ANYWAY, the song is "Who I Am" by Nick Jonas and The Administration. The part that reminded me of a mess and the part of the song that I can relate to the most is:

"Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right, nothing is right when you're gone
I'm losing my breath, I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death, I'm frightened that I won't be strong"

Although my favorite part of the lyrics is the chorus:

"I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am"

I don't think that it's wrong to love someone or want to love someone. In fact, I don't think it's wrong at all to even want to understand something like love. It's very abstract and very categorized into so many cliche things within our time, but there's just something within me that tells me that everyone's definition of love is unique and when you find someone who's definition is the same as yours in every aspect and at the same time you think that being with them (even just thinking about them) is something that will make you the happiest person in the world, then it's love. Although, I kind of feel like the society now just treats the word love like the word work. In other words, just treating it like a four-letter-word that is simply in it's simplest terms JUST A WORD. I think as a person, art and for love, everything should bloom. Everything around you and about you should bloom as a person because every time you get back up again, you change and every aspect of you is changing in every way and every single day, hour and even second. Some people say that life is a game and...really, it kind of is. You're dealt with a situation and it tests you every single time if you pass and when you do, you win and when you don't, you still win because you learn. You learn to be better and you learn to bloom. My advice? (Although NOBODY reads this blog. xD) Well, my advice is to learn to find what definition YOU have for LIFE and for LOVE because it's not JUST a four-letter-word and it's not just a word that is overused and stomp upon in our society. It's something to cherish and let come to you and discover. With an art analogy....see how many colors and different textures you can make your painting of life, neh? =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qQ3Sz0IMmE
(Who I Am by Nick Jonas and The Administration)