She sipped her passion fruit green tea slowly and stared off blankly at the last fried tofu that was lightly sprinkled with pepper. The person sitting across from her knew better than to think that she was eying it because she wanted it, but he also knew that what she wanted more than anything else in the world was a simple life.
"What are you thinking about?" She blinked away the shine. Ah, someone was home.
"Hm?" She looked off to the side and slightly looked at him and pushed the plate with the tofu towards him. He shook his head and curiously gave her an encouraging look.
"You can have it." She blinked again and quickly stabbed the last tofu with the kabob stick right in the middle, and then popped it into her mouth. The way she held the kabob stick made it look like she was holding a weapon to defend herself. He decided to watch the tv over her shoulder since he was bored.
She swallowed and sipped at her drink again. Then her eyes glazed over as she dazed off again. He slightly frowned and went to tend tn his phone. Although, he knew that she'd tell him eventually.
"I don't know what I'm doing.." she said so quietly that if he wasn't paying attention, he would've thought she didn't say anything at all. He looked up and watched as she was playing some sort of game where she was trying to spear the leftover crumbs on the plate with the kabob stick.
"I'm...not sure what you're doing either."
"No..I mean...I don't know if I'm teaching her right. I don't know what I'm doing half the time." She didn't have to look up to know that he was watching her seriously. She didn't have to explain further either because she trusted him to understand. He was smart like that.
"Do you know why it's better to have experience than knowledge?"
He had a way with words...that made everything just make sense to her. A kind of way that would teach, encourage and comfort her all in one. Afterwards, she would still think on it and it would overwhelm her and make her cry, but it didn't matter. A little after that, she'd be at home brushing her finger against a dream catcher's chime that he gave her so that it would sing and make her favorite sound.
She smiled warmly as she thought of him. Kindness was such a precious gift.
"Jie Jie?" a small voice called. She turned her attention to the small girl in her bed. She heard the sniffles and was reminded of her own when she was biting her lip and in his arms.
"Jie Jie's here. Don't cry."
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I know it's not very good, but this is an entry that means a lot to me. I want to remember it.
Reminder to self: I can do it. I won't give up.