Picture Diary #276

Me = Prepared for Battle

I has just come to my attention that this week is Finals week. -deeply breathes- Hmph. I can do this. Bring it. 3.2 GPA. I am so totally going to do it. Bring it! D=<

P.S. That is a determined face. Not an intensely pissed off face. If I was pissed off. There would be capped, bold words scorching the screen. That is all. Good night.

Me = Hanging At Hollywood

So I went on a 6 mile hike at Hollywood and totally got a picture with the sign. =) It was wonderful and fun and awesome and many other positive adjectives that seem to escape my now searching, scrambling mind.

I was...at...Hollywood and also saw a great view of downtown LA, complete with a thin veil of smog. It was better than it sounds. I am totally serious because I am an absolute sucker for views. =) I wanted to imagine it when it was at night, but I was informed that it probably wasn't as attractive as I pictured it.

Anyways, I got to be more than halfway done with my art project's realism portion. I plan to make a proportion project with a deck of cards. I wonder how to design them. I think I'll go have fun with it. =)

Me = New Year Reflection

I wish to become more patient. My New Year's wish was simply to just be able to learn something new every day. Even if it was the slightest little thing that seems like it wouldn't make a big difference, I'd be fine with it. Just something. I really want to be able to see the world in a better light. It still seems a little pessimistic now, but it's better than last year I think. Optimism. Optimism. Optimism. I think I can do it. I need to at least try and give it a shot. Yes....give it a shot.

So there was a New Year's Eve party too and we ended up not being able to countdown with the rest of the world, but we estimated and it was...about the same time..haha. =) It's all right though. It may have started out a bit on the low side, but there's nowhere to go but up once you've reached a low. I have to be able to do it, if not for myself then at least for the people who have faith in me and support me. I have to at least do it for them.

I have a very very kind Ge Ge. He tried to cheer me up with some card magic tricks and a few games of Big 2, even though it started with only the two of us for about 30 minutes. Thank you. Heart. =) You really do make my day and make me smile, even when it seems like there's little to smile about.

I've done many new things in the year of 2010. Onward to 2011. Onward to a more independent future and more learning and discovering and becoming! I can do it! Stay positive! .........................................Please?

Me = Christmas Reflection

Went to a family thing in the morning on Xmas Eve.
Went to a Potluck afterwards.
Movies, games, food until like 4am.

Mom was at friend's house.
Sister was at friend's house.
Dad was out hanging out with his friends.

In the end....hm..I spent Christmas with people I saw as family after all anyway, so it was nice. I wanted to spend it with at least some people in my family though..seeing as this is the last year that we're going to stick together and actually physically be here in the same house together, but I suppose...it was a foolish, childish wish. Defeated by a naive, little train of thought.

I'm trying to really be there for Olivia. She's starting to wander off on her own little road. Soon, she'll be the only family left I have. I have to be able to be there for her. Hopefully, I'll do a decent enough job. High school without a mother. I really can't imagine it, therefore, hopefully, she won't have to. I just have to try my best. Please give me strength to do it.

Me = Embarking Upon A New Journal Concept

I've been given a new journal from a New Year's Hot Pot event that I skipped out on due to horrible cramps and dizziness. You'll rue that day, you horrible cramps. You'll rue it.

Anyways, so Ge Ge had written me a really nice card with a very heart warming message on it and I'm keeping it somewhere safe. He apparently stuck it inside the journal's pocket...hiding it...the little bugger. The notecard, not him. xD -crickets chirping-...ANYWAYS..

So the concept is that I'm going to be writing an entry everyday until the end of the school year. In each entry, the topic/message shall pertain to messages catered to Ge Ge. The card he wrote was really sweet and thoughtful, so I'm trying to give back equally pretty words...key word: trying. In other words, the journal shall be a OMAK journal with mini letters that I shall write to him from now until graduation. ^^

I want to try to do this for other people too. I think it'd be nice. I can practice my writing on a daily basis and practice rejoicing and OMAK-ing others daily as well. Hrm. I rather enjoy this idea. Yay!

Me = National Pissed Off People Day

It wouldn't surprise me if this existed, but it seems to be this particular day in my world. Well..then again New York is just filled with mad people I heard. I pissed people in basketball today. I pissed this girl off at the gym today I think because I was practicing hip hop choreography with the music too loud. >.< I pissed off Fae Mao today while in the school parking lot, but decided to immediately drop it. >.< I pissed off my mother because she is displeased that my little sister was left alone for so long when she told me to go home earlier, which I think I didn't have to do since I already agreed to go exercise. So instead, I called her twice to check up on her, but it still ended up with her wanting to leave me outside when I called her to ask her to open the door when I got home. Fine...fine. I won't go exercise every Tuesday now. It slightly irritates me, but I can understand, so I won't be completely against it.

My little sister gave me this website. It's pretty interesting.

http://www.brownielocks.com/month2.html

[note to self: visit when in need of a laugh]